Lost without your love

my friends always ask me who is my boyfriend...i answered them i don't have. though i had. but i denied it hahaha. seriously, i had a boyfriend. he was younger than me. we were lovers for couple of months then separated our ways. i realized, i don't like him hahaha. it is just like that. but it does not mean i was vulnerable after the breaking-up. in fact, i fell in love with someone when we were still "on". a traitor me! i betrayed him ( in my mind). but the person " i falling in" was never my boyfriend. he courted me but i answered him "no'. tanga di ba?? unfortunately, he married to a woman whom he knew for a month. obviously, we are not meant to be :-)...life must go on. it is hurting me deep inside knowing he is not anymore available. he can never be mine, forever:-)

i met this guy, a batchmate. he is my ultimate crush as i considered him. he makes me smile like this :-)...it is just a crush. i hope he won't mind hahaha. who knows it will grow into crush-crush or more :-) ...hopefully...hahaha..never??!!??

i have a boy friend. he treated me as special friend. and he is to me. he is sooo sweet and caring friend. every please i make, he granted it. and so i am to him. we are like that bec we treated ourselves as friend...so, are we?..not me! i like him more than a friend. it is not a sin to like more your friend, right? i just realized it after one incident. he is sweeter than i ever think. and more caring than i ever feel. i jealous when he is with his girlfriend..so much!

i don't have a boyfriend as of now...but i am inlove:-)

here's a song suited for me:-)