A LETTER TO GOD

Dear God,
first of all, i wanna say "thank you" for guiding and healing my mother. thank you also for always bestowing overflowing blessings to us. you know the real situation of my mother's heart.

God, you know very much how i live my life nowadays. You knew my sufferings, pains, joys and happiness. You knew in every pain i did not ask a guidance from You. You knew in evry joy i did not praise you. You knew how my pride works in me. the pride that kept me away from You. You knew in times of difficulties i did not ask help from You. You knew how stubborn I was.but, despite of these unrespectful and undesirable deeds of me, You still there hugging and keeping me in Your loving arms. i am not worthy to be treated this way, God, but You wholly accepted me. Please do forgive me for hurting You so much...for ignoring You...and taking you for granted. i was far from Your abode for 11 months, now i am back. thank you for welcoming me wid wide open arms. You are my home, my sanctuary, my soul. without You, i can do nothing. without You, i am nothing.

thank you again for accepting me in Your "home".
i love you.


your daughter,

veta

Queen of Drama

"it's unfair!" i uttered this line the other day. i know, comparing oneself to others is not good. but, it was not really fair for me at all. why i need to suffer it? why should i? why???why???why??? *sigh*

why some people can't follow the rule accordingly? why they loved rejecting me and granting the requests of others? is it because i am nothing for them? is it because...and because...and because...

this is me if i am mad and sad. i got mad of the situation i am in. i could do nothing. i have no power to shout out my reasons to them. i am just a subordinate. i find difficulty dealing with my actions and emotions esp. being with them. how can i surpass this? kaloka!!! grrrrrrrrrrr