life is hard....

...sometimes.

early this morning, well, i might say that it was not so good. having tiff with my parents ( my mother) is quite uneasy.

it is started when i tried to let her take her medicine (my mother's kidney failed to function) i bought last night. it was costly and i don't wanna put all the medicine in vain. she must swallow it or else she will suffer more the pain. but, she hesitated to take it. she gave more nonsense reasons why she could not take all the  medicine. and i was angry...so tired listening her nonsense reasons.

i went to my work with a heavy-hearted. and i was thirty minutes late. as soon as i enter the gate, i met my principal...ashamed.


after an hour or more, i received a message through my phone,

life is hard...
because we see the obstacles, not the goals.


life is painful,
because we see the tears, not the smiles.


people are rejected..
because we see their faults not their deeds.


people are weak...
because we see their failures not their success.


look at the bright side of things and this world will be worthwhile to live in. 


Appreciate life more!


oh, yeah. a timely message. thanks to mark.

i am so glad

just checking out my gmail account, the account that was hacked last August 2010. it was malfunctioned for almost three months. i disregard it because, i thought it won't go back to its original system. but, while ago as i opened it, perfect! it is normally working. i am so glad. now, my account can receive again newsletters and e-mails.

so, if you have something to say just e-mail me veta897 at gmail dot com.

p.s.
i hope my paypal account submitted to the BuyBlogReviews will work correctly. i never received any payments from them. in their payment history, it shows that they pay me $7 but it never reached my paypal account. where did my money go? where did my money go? i wanna know, buyblogreviews.

water problem

i'd rather to no electricity than to no water!

So, where i ME now?

if you noticed i seldom updated my page in here. it is not that nothing special happened to me. it is not that all the things happened to me were nonsense that i couldn't help to post it in here. aren't they?(well well well both are true.)

life is full of surprises! yes, it is. that until now, i need someone to push me  to become sober again.

i started to ask God nonsense questions...so stupid of me! why me? why it happened to us? why?--- so nonsense, isn't it! how dare to ask those questions to Him!

after all... after it all... what i have done?

dont corrupt!

i've been working for 7 years now. i was a SBT for three years. (perseverance is the virtue).
that time, the superintendent told me that there is no new and vaccant permanent item for me. that's why i stayed longer as SBT.
last 2005, the new superintendent installed. new manager, new hope for new permanent item. to my dismay, she just added my burden. you know why? she gave the new item positions to the new applicants and to the new applicants who never passed to any interviews and application processessssss. Grrrrrr!
i approached her telling her about my intention but to no avail. not to prolong my agony and frustration, i wrote a letter to the president of the philippines. i stated  everything in the letter- my situation, my feelings, my observations and my frustrations. after 3 months ( not really sure), the secretary of education sent an endorsement letter with furnished copy to the region office and city division office. when knew about the letter, she got mad. (who cares!)
after a year, she gave me an item, a permanent position, with a heavy heart,my sacrifices and tears were my soul evidence, before she finally signed and approved my appointment.
anyways, i still thanked her despite of "not so good" experiences with her.
on 2007, she retired. (thanks God!)
i touched her ego. she touched my dignity.
Lesson: stop corrupting please!!!!!

life oh life

every pain
every hurt
every anxiety
every laugh
i ask why?

every murmur
every sarcasm
every shout
i ask why?

i ask why i experienced this?
why i suffer like this?
do i have to do this?

there's a time, i wanna cease my life
there's a time i just let it happen what it meant to be
there's a time i greed and numb
but after all this time, i regretted why i passed those times

one day,
a challenge came
...so difficult to acceppt...to manage...to solve ( i tot)
but, God, made a way not let His chold worry of the challenges she met.

what is the essence of my existence in this wonderful world? ( i asked myself)
God showed me the real me...my perpose...my significance..

what is it? ( it is a secret between me and God).